What calms you down??

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SoulWinner

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After a fire fight? Any fire fight is intense. It is the kind of thing that can forever change you. It can make a good person turn bad, a bad person turn good, any person become dead. You're fired on and you respond. You ( if you keep a real cool head )sight in a target. A million thoughts race through your head "wow, did I just get shot at? Am I hit? are my buddies ok? Is this a real guy I'm fixing to squeeze on? Am I gunna live through this? Will I be killed? will it hurt? what will my wife do if I die? "Etc... and you squeeze. Three rounds ring out so fast. One chasing another, they fly our of the breech and down the barrel. Out of the muzzle the fly like three little birds on some aimless migration. Off they fly in to the air, to find or lose their intended target. This goes on and on and on for eternity until it stops.<br /><br />You, if you are still alive afterward you are mad. Angry. Incensed. Outraged!!! How and why would anyone shoot at ME?!?! What were they thinking? How many were there? Am I damn sure I'm still alive? <br />What calms you down after such calamity and alarm? <br /><br />Inspecting the dead and looking into the lifeless eyes of a man that you shot. <br /><br />Looking into the lifeless eyes of the guy who WAS crouched next to you will only send you into a psychotic rage...you know his name, you've met his wife, you adore his kids.... That will put the lust for blood in your heart. You will look for revenge in anything living thing to which you can inflict pain and torment. But to look into the eyes of dead man, whom you yourself killed, will take the hate away....take away the anger...and make you want to tear off your clothes and run away into a river to wash away the terror and hatred of the entire experience. You want to talk to the guy. Know about his life, his family, his hopes and dreams. The adrenalin is gone. The thought of taking a wiz is gone. The thought of your next meal repulses you. You want to be as far away from that place as you can get, held in the arms of a little delicate woman. Held there so you can feel safe in her little arms. Weird huh? <br /><br />I don't know where this is coming from, or how I think you should respond......I know that I have gone from the most vile human specimen to the most happy. I live in that place the Walgreen commercials talk about...I live in Perfect. My life today is perfect. I am happy. I have no fear. Really, I don't fear anything, confined spaces, heights, depths, death....nothing. I give no thought for the morrow, because the morrow will take thought for it's self. I never thought life could really be this good, but it's even better than that!<br /><br />If there are any vets here, or anybody who has been through a frightening episode, what calmed you down? What if anything drained the adrenalin out you? Today I sleep like a baby, do you?
 
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Re: What calms you down??

Email me buddy, heinz.forster@copart.com or AOL IM me at HKFCOPART, are you ok pal? Please let me know. ITS ALL gonna turn out FINE! Whatever happened is in the PAST, YOU ARE gonna be OK. YOUR life is the HERE and NOW. Heinz
 
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Originally posted by SoulWinner:<br />After a fire fight? Any fire fight is intense. It is the kind of thing that can forever change you. It can make a good person turn bad, a bad person turn good, any person become dead. You're fired on and you respond. You ( if you keep a real cool head )sight in a target. A million thoughts race through your head "wow, did I just get shot at? Am I hit? are my buddies ok? Is this a real guy I'm fixing to squeeze on? Am I gunna live through this? Will I be killed? will it hurt? what will my wife do if I die? "Etc... and you squeeze. Three rounds ring out so fast. One chasing another, they fly our of the breech and down the barrel. Out of the muzzle the fly like three little birds on some aimless migration. Off they fly in to the air, to find or lose their intended target. This goes on and on and on for eternity until it stops.<br /><br />You, if you are still alive afterward you are mad. Angry. Incensed. Outraged!!! How and why would anyone shoot at ME?!?! What were they thinking? How many were there? Am I damn sure I'm still alive? <br />What calms you down after such calamity and alarm? <br /><br />Inspecting the dead and looking into the lifeless eyes of a man that you shot. <br /><br />Looking into the lifeless eyes of the guy who WAS crouched next to you will only send you into a psychotic rage...you know his name, you've met his wife, you adore his kids.... That will put the lust for blood in your heart. You will look for revenge in anything living thing to which you can inflict pain and torment. But to look into the eyes of dead man, whom you yourself killed, will take the hate away....take away the anger...and make you want to tear off your clothes and run away into a river to wash away the terror and hatred of the entire experience. You want to talk to the guy. Know about his life, his family, his hopes and dreams. The adrenalin is gone. The thought of taking a wiz is gone. The thought of your next meal repulses you. You want to be as far away from that place as you can get, held in the arms of a little delicate woman. Held there so you can feel safe in her little arms. Weird huh? <br /><br />I don't know where this is coming from, or how I think you should respond......I know that I have gone from the most vile human specimen to the most happy. I live in that place the Walgreen commercials talk about...I live in Perfect. My life today is perfect. I am happy. I have no fear. Really, I don't fear anything, confined spaces, heights, depths, death....nothing. I give no thought for the morrow, because the morrow will take thought for it's self. I never thought life could really be this good, but it's even better than that!<br /><br />If there are any vets here, or anybody who has been through a frightening episode, what calmed you down? What if anything drained the adrenalin out you? Today I sleep like a baby, do you?
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Ok answer to your question, what chills me right? MY SON and daughters, my boat(takin it out w/ just ME FRIDAY(woohoo!) I swear SOUL even though how much I love fishin, JUST ME CRUISIN IN BOAT, calm winds, the here and now, killin GOLF BALLS, shootin TRAP(clay decoys) and maybe sex does it for me brother. :) Reply or terribly dissapoint me :) AND............... YOU GOTTA LAUGH!, get drunk once in awhile(safely), play hookey from work, pay the toll in BACK of you at tollbridge, tell a woman you dont know, that shes pretty and whomever loves her is lucky,,.....TRY IT..............
 
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Re: What calms you down??

OK SOUL.......(my fav) take a partentless child FISHING and see how THEY skunk YOU! Youre in my prayers as so many others are in YOURS!
 
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Re: What calms you down??

GOD :) - Enough said.<br /><br />"If you can read this, Thank a Teacher....<br />If you are reading it in English, Thank a Veteran."
 
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A sixty inch Musky...my bad you said what calms you down.. :D
 
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Never experienced a fire fight, but I know what calms me down. <br /><br />That is to know my family is safe from such atrocities and that there are men and women out there laying it on the line in the same circumstances described above, protecting all of us, our homes, and our land. These men and women do this volantarily they aren't made to do this.....This is extremely calming to me. <br /><br />To these men and women, You all have my deepest respect and gratitude for keeping us all safe in the Land of The Free and The Home of The Brave.
 
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Never got in a classic firefight, just a surprise mano e mano that "never happened" in a place that "I never was". <br /><br />When I look at my son, grandsons and great grandson that boy's dead, peaceful face comes back to me. <br /><br />Almost 40 years now; I wonder what sort of descendants he might have had, had he not tried to kill me. No regrets or PTSS, just sadness. I know it was him or me.<br /><br />Calms me down? If I got much calmer I might not wake up. :D
 
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Soul,<br /><br />Well I have never been engaged by a hostile enemy force or come under fire. I went through a lot of training for a day that never came, and the older I get the more thankful I am for that. I know in the back of my mind I harbored many thoughts as to what I would do, could I really do it, what would happen to him, me, my buddies. I don't have any answers, just wanted to let you know I hear you and your in my thoughts.<br /><br />Semper Fi
 
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SW, for me it is looking back and realizing I actually survived and am now back in civilization. Nothing much rattles me now. I guess if you can make it through he// not much comes along that can't be dealt with. I know this sounds simplistic but surviving those type of things gives me confidence in the ability to handle most everything else. Of course there was a lot of devine help in many of those situations.
 
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Very good answerers. My fav? Doobies. I remember the days, but now doobs just put me to sleep. My bro took some $2500/oz hydroponic on his honeymoon....man..that was some powerful stuff( i know because it wasted him, and he smokes daily. I don't partake anymore). I remember getting a six finger sack of tops for $5.00, talk about inflation :eek: <br /><br />I have the comforter that was sent, and I really do live in perfect (those Walgreen's commercials are aggravating, everyone should have this life of mine). I have lived through moments of elevated emotional distress that left me with a headache that knocked me out cold.....man did that hurt. I have lived through cowardice, and that was shameful. I have lived through all of the things that everyone here has lived through (except Ladyfish, you can have the child birth, I would rather shoot myself :D ) But it's funny how it all worked out...I never thought that I would wind up here. I never thought I could I could love as much as I love my wife. I never thought I could love as much as I love my son. I never thought I could love as much as I love total strangers. I never thought that happiness and peace had the depth that I now explore daily. Life is like a box of really good chocolates, without the crappy ones that nobody eats with the weird fruit flavored nugget. It is a box of the good stuff, with taffy, and nuts, and crisped rice. and no wax either :D <br /><br />It's amazing what all can be inside a persons head huh? I can't imagine what all lurks in guys heads that are my dads age. What does it do to you if you have been were you weren't, when you weren't JB? I'm sorry that Washington ever had the audacity to send you someplace that they would not take credit for, to do a job that they couldn't take credit for. The face and the questions about the life behind that face never go away. I'm really joyful that your mom and dad got to see you smile again, and that your wife was able to hold you again, and give you kids, and them give you grand kids, and them give you great grand kids. You and this forum are a blessing to me.<br /><br />Good night everyone. Sleep Well.
 
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Wes Im sorry my email from home not working as should, pls IM me at HKFCOPART(AOL IM)
 
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